Archive for April, 2014

grammatically correct

Posted: April 27, 2014 in Uncategorized

I found it or I’ve found it?

Both are correct. Usually they mean the same thing, too. But there can be a difference. The perfect ‘I’ve found’ continues into the present.If I’ve found my pencil, that means I found it, and I’ve still got it now. But the simple past ‘I found’ just talks about the past – it doesn’t mention what’s true now.

So it’s possible to say:

Yes, I’ve found it, and i kept it in my bag.

Yes, I found it. But then I broke it and had to throw it away.

 

Are we in the present tense or in the simple past tense? I used to believe that I’ve found you. But maybe the correct way of saying it is “I found you.”

No sense in figuring that out I guess. Both are grammatically correct statements anyway. I guess the point is that there are things that will always possess a great mattering even after losing them. I may have lost you but the fact that I found you once will always be true. Nothing can change that. There are many things I hold true and dear to me and not even a shitty ending can shake those. You’re right, I had you at your best, and I want to thank you for that. 🙂

 

dream sequence

Posted: April 27, 2014 in Uncategorized

matagal ko nang ginawang krimen ang paglimot sa mga mumunti at pinakamahahalagang detalye ng isang sandali. hinayaang kumapit sa isip at itinabi na lang sa isang sulok – madaling balikan kung nais, madaling kalimutan kung kailangan.

naiwan sa isip, nagtuloy hanggang sa panaginip. ilang gabi na akong kinakalabit ng mga ngiti mo, pinipilit gisingin mula sa pagkakahimbing. maaalimpungatan, pupungas-pungas na pipiliting bumangon pero magpapatalo din sa antok. sisiksik ka sa kumot ng pangarap, gigil na yayakap at hindi na naman ako magigising.

hanggang sa hinuna minumulto ako ng alaala mo. sutil ang pusong gusto kang durugin ng pagmamahal.

magtatalsikan ang mga salitang madulas sa dila. bitaw lang ng bitaw. bahala ka na kung gusto mong maniwala. problema mo na kung aasa. wala kahit kaunting usok, ang linaw ng eksena. sumisingaw na ang katotohanan. hindi maitago ng mga labing ayaw tumigil, hindi maikubli ng mga matang nakangiti. naalala mo ba nung sinabi ko sayong nasilip ko ang kaluluwa mo nung unang nagkita tayo? pinilit kong hanapin yun. madilim, mahirap. bumulong ako ng dasal na sana paglagpas ng tingin ko sa balat mo makita kitang masaya.

maligo sa pag-asa. hindi. maligo sa pagkakuntento. hindi pwedeng makadama ng kahit isang hibla ng lamya. bawat minuto ay maayos at pinag-aralang galaw. lahat maingat at maalaga. lunukin ang mga pangako, isuka muna ang kahapon at bukas. kung ngayon lang ang mayroon, sapat na din iyon. bumitaw sa takot. tumalon sa walang kasiguruhan. umibig ng walang alinlangan.

nagpakalasing sa malabnaw na mga sandali. maswerte ang mga kayang hindi kumapit sa taning. ang oras ay oras at hindi kailangang bilangin. ang mga sandali ay may dalang bigat na hindi na dapat pang timbangin.

nagpapatintero ang mga puso kung kailan matingkad na matingkad ang dilim. namumukhaan kita kahit sa ilalim ng kumot.

malalim at mapait.

kumunoy. habang pumipiglas, lalong lumulubog. habang pinipilit umahon, lalong napupunta sa pinakailalim.

lapot at tamis.

ilang oras lang lalabnaw at tatabang din muli.

may dalang pangungulila ang pag-abot sa hinuna, ang pananatili sa panaginip. nagpatianod sa kaisipang bumabalot sa mga pantasya’t hiling.

gusto mong ipako ang mga pakpak ko para hindi na ako lumipad palayo dahil lahat ay umaalis at hindi nananatili. lubus-lubusin na lang ang panahong para sa iyo. hindi ko din alam kung bakit, pero alam ko lilipad at lilipad ako. sayang ang mga pakpak na hindi nagagamit. masarap ang hampas sa mukha ng dumadaluyong na hangin ng tuwa at laya. makakalipad ka kung ang mga pakpak mo ay walang dalang sugat na binigay mo sa ibang tao.

hinele ako ng korte, gaspang, lambot at kinis mo. hingal sa pagod, lupaypay sa saya. gusto kong maniwala. gusto kong maniwala. gusto kong kumapit at hindi na bumitaw. pero mayroon kang mga paang marunong lumakad palayo, mayroong mga kamay na marunong pumalag, mga matang marunong umiwas ng tingin, mga taingang kayang maging bingi.

at ako ay may mga pakpak na hindi ko na kakalimutang gamitin.

cherry red 042714

REM

Posted: April 8, 2014 in Uncategorized

Did you feel my eyes twitch while i was asleep? Did the grinding of my teeth wake you up from what was becoming a good sleep?

The voices and visions keep on coming into my head. Usually when i sleep. Half awake half asleep. They say you get to think more when you are lucid. I am not sure if that’s the case with me.

Temptations and the things you try to escape often show up in the most impeccable manner. Timing is always crucial. They hit you when you are vulnerable and suddenly you are powerless. Immediately succumbing to the call of fresh wild flesh. Not taking in consideration the implications of your actions.

I’ve had dirty thoughts here and there while sleeping. Too many i lost count. Somehow i always managed to suck it up and be aware of my reality.

I get these thoughts, these desires and i respond by trying to be awake, giving you a tight hug and smiling, reminding myself that THIS IS WHAT I WANT, WHAT I NEED.

Those thoughts never cease to visit me from time to time. And sometimes you are still there lying beside me. I silence them by holding you tight. Trying to grab a hold of whatever’s left.

The feeling is somehow the same. Even if i know that nothing is ever (will ever be) the same.

Thoughts face me, screaming. As if giving me the divine mockery of words. I close my eyes and hold you.

No we can’t silence then anymore. I stretch my arms waiting to be consumed.

 

 

CherryRed 040814

yung totoo

Posted: April 7, 2014 in Uncategorized

malambot at madaling masugatan ang aking mga kamay

kahoy kang hindi makinis,

nakausli ang mga tusok-tusok na maninipis na pirasong

tila handa nang sugatan ako

 

takot na akong masugatan, iniiwasang lumapit at magalusan

ng ganda mo

 

basta’t sayo, payag ako kahit ano

 

patakbo akong hahangos palapit sayo

aakapin ka ng buong-buo

sugatan mo ako

hayaang tumulo ang dugo mula sa balat ko

 

nakangiti akong tatanggapin ang anumang ibigay mo

kukunin ko ang kamay mo, ipapasok sa dibdib ko

halukayin mo’t kunin ang puso ko

matagal na yang iyo

 

sasaktan at sasaktan mo ako

pero alam mong hindi iyan ang dahilan ng pag-agos ng dugo

 

hanggang maghilom ang mga sugat,

kusang-loob kong ididipa ang aking mga kamay

handang-handa na ako sayo

 

 

CherryRed 040714

i think i have touched you

Posted: April 7, 2014 in Uncategorized

they say poetry has to touch someone where your hands couldn’t.

is this why i’ve been kissing you through the bars of a rhyme?

if this is true then maybe i have touched you a hundred times. my lips have traced the outline of your body. my tongue has tasted your skin. i have spent the night with you, stroking your hair and watching you sleep. my legs have been brushing with yours. my tongue has played with your teeth. if words can touch you the way i can’t, maybe i’d write you a book. i would write you a novel and i will love you everyday. i will write haikus everyday just to be privileged to see you smile in the morning or hear your adorable laugh. i will think of words that will make you hard. i will create sentences that will make you wet. i will write of you everyday until you feel the need to touch me.

until you feel the need to write poetry for me. feed my hunger with your play on words, impress me with your thoughts and vocabulary. actually no, drop all the books, the words. shut up and just kiss me.

CherryRed 040714

21 days

Posted: April 7, 2014 in Uncategorized

They say it takes at least 21 days to make or break a habit.

To put it simply, habits are patterns of behavior we get used to. It has something to do with the synaptic pathways in our brains. So why 21 days? No one knows, really. I don’t even know.

 

Well, kudos to people who can break a habit overnight.

 

 

CherryRed December 2013

Is stupidity contagious?

Posted: April 5, 2014 in Uncategorized

unfortunately yes. people who have been exposed should be quarantined immediately as symptoms may not become apparent for several days after the initial contact. signs of sickness are (but not limited to) the inability to form coherent, intelligent or genuinely original thoughts, arguments or opinions; engagement in erratic, dangerous, irresponsible and otherwise harmful behaviour; obsessiveness and extreme fanaticism of intellectually mind-numbing sudden and sometimes violent convulsions when approached with a question that requires more than a yes or no answer; extreme allergic reactions to ideas or notions that are outside of their immediate realm of knowledge; possess very low tolerance to wit, cultural and political awareness, and sense of civic responsibility and duty to themselves, others and/or their environment. repeatedly communicates in an impersonal stance with others; will become extremely enraged or upset when confronted with their wrongdoing or when asked to explain their actions; whines and complains incessantly but does nothing to commit to change; profusely seeks the acceptance of others at the expense of their own self-identity.

if you know someone who has been infected with this disease, seek professional intellectual help immediately.

 

Source: WikiAnswers

 

and i personally find wikiAnswers articles a little stupid themselves but i find this one very close to reality.